DATE: 21 Feb 2023
Wind Breeze Blowing
7:53 am
The mind is cluttered, filled with an overwhelming number of thoughts—what to do, what to skip. The greed to accomplish so much at once exceeds human capacity, yet the desire for more persists. This mental clutter jams the mind, preventing it from functioning organizationally. Life cannot be truly organized unless someone has full control over every aspect of another person’s life. For a complex person like me, it’s like a piece of cake that’s too complicated to simplify. The variety of tasks and their scope can be vast in a single moment.
I can temporarily ignore some tasks, but the inner greed refuses to let me. Deep down, I know that if this continues, I’ll never accomplish anything. It’s a predicament—a confusing phase in my life that leads to inevitable failure. I’m trapped by my own behavior. With all my will, I want to improve, become more organized, and evolve into a better version of myself. Yet, every time I try, I push those steps back. This leaves me feeling guilty, hopeless, and stuck.